A Blossoming Spirit

The choir was getting ready for the Festival. There were rehearsals going on as I looked for a seat not in the front and not too behind as well. When I came in, there were only a few people, and slowly it started to be occupied. In few minutes, I could hear the bells ringing as a sign for everyone to come to the church as they started getting to begin.

As I sat there in silence observing people who came in, I was reminded of my childhood dream. Yes, I always wanted to be a part of church choirs and everywhere I could sing with all my heart and soul. Each time I come to a church and when I see the choir singing, I am reminded of this unfulfilled dream.

Maybe it’s too late now, I think that often. Especially, in a country where language is always a struggle. To get to a community, to make meaningful connections and be at service all seems like a big task now as I try to build my life here from scratch and still in the process.

But here’s what, singing is what I loved, where and how probably did not matter now because I have convinced myself. Instead of whining over what I did not achieve below are some changes that I did that keeps be closer to this passion:

1) Singing for myself: If I could have been trained and taken music as a profession, it would have been great, but sooner I realised, that I just have to sing for myself when I feel like. Sing wholeheartedly with joy.

2) Healing inner wounds: This habit became a way for me to shift my mind from things I was worried about. Heartbreaks, disappointments, being hurt, singing and recording myself singing became the most joyful thing I liked doing.

3) Sharing it with the world: A little bit of what I recorded,I started sharing to the world in the form of social media. I was scared to do this in the beginning, because I never liked seeing myself in videos and to add my sound. I had fear of being judged or mocked for doing it. To my surprise, the response I received has been pleasantly overwhelming. I have been showered with so much love and encouragement every time I post a new song.

4) Finding my voice: Expressing myself had always been a challenge for me, which I am still trying to overcome. Recording my songs, became a perfect way for me to be comfortable in my own voice and to express myself fully by immersing myself with the music and flow.

I am sure there are many other things, music and singing has been helping me to cope with. I finally feel happy expressing it in my personal blog. I hope you liked this blog and found it useful.

What’s your story? How has music shaped you as a person? I would be interested to know.